ThE ReALiTY

maybe there a day when that which is familiar will become unfamiliar...
even if you stare at one point all the time, you will suddenly notice, that it changed to something unknown..

it just the way we live our life every day.. if you just cant be brave enough to make a step, one day you will recognize thing around you had changed, even you are at the same point.

thing can be complicated as you don't know the reason of the thing you do every day. why do you have to? we used to think that's the reason, but as time fled, you will may think maybe it isn't.

maybe the thing you love the most, may be the one you hate the most. it was something common actually, but we like to think too deep, enough to not take the first step instead the next step, make you stumble.


i used to think follow the flow will make things better. i have to go to school, go to university, and all. so, i do remain study cause i know i have to through it though. so why the urge to disobey this order?

but as i accept this rule, my heart and head cant walk thoroughly together. is there anybody who can??

MaNneR oF sEpaRaTIoN

im busy with my hard mid sem exam this month and next month, so i post nothing for this few weeks. today, as im trying to have some times to relax my neuron, i watched a drama, korean drama.. hehehe....

this girl makes me think of something. people always do something base on some reasons, whether its for themselves, or for their beloved ones. and since some reasons cant be told to other party, it hurts badly.

how much could you like someone, enough to make you want to die?i don't believe there is kind of love between boy and girl existed in this world.

break up always brings sorrow towards someone that feels love. this drama told me there are manners for separation. manner for humans, so their sorrow can be lessen or disappear. depends on how strong they are actually.

Go and beg. tell her that you are sorry. tell her you're sincerely sorry that your heart changed. just go and sincerely apologise to her. since there nothing you can do if your heart changed.

even though i never go on with this break up situation, but i do have 'leave out' situation. he leaved me without farewell, acted like we've never knew each other before. he3..

so, i know how sad this break up situation are, for the person who are feel love. and i do really know how this apologise word meant to me. i do really hope for apologise until now, but i do 100% know it can never be happen. he3...

oH hApPY dAy...!

the emptiness of our heart means lack of love. in this 24hours a day you spent, how long are you alone? doing nothing just watching movie alone to fill out the missing hour?

but actually, how long you spent your time with someone doesnt mean you full of love. what is important are how long have you been yourself in this 24/7? do you ever ask yourself about is this the real you?

when youre laughing, are you sure in that mean time, you do really want to laugh? or are you just want to be a part of this people? to be exact, are you doing things you do really want to do?

people tends to do something that others do. they doesnt like to be different, make them lying even towards themselves.

so, in this eid, hope you can find the real you and earn courage to show it. that makes your life even lovelier and alive. cherish every moment, every single event , and everyone....

selamat hari raya haji...

yes sir lights go on again
keep on and on and on
on and on and on

i was having trouble in the long and dark
in the one place where a streak of light shines
in order to reach that place
now my time is here
taking an easy breath
i will stand proud in front of you all

no matter how difflicult it gets as i fall from being tired
the light that shines on me again
oh yeah yeah yeah
even though i want to give up and run away
it shines toward me even brighter
i shed the light again

if the lights go on again and shines over me again
i will raise myself again
lights go on again, lights go on again
when the lights shines over me and wakes me again
it will move my hart again
lights go on again, lights go on again

oh, lights go on agian
oh, lights go on again yeah
oh, lights go on again
oh oh, lights go on again, on again

b2st~lights go on again~

even they had their own stories behind this song, but i hope me too, can take this soul of the song as my new starting life story..