Saturday 12 February 2011

toO bOLd

theres something i have to confess here... hope someday when i read back these blog, i can laugh happily seeing how unmature i am now..

even i tried to forgive to forget hafiz, it seems i cant stop thinking about how much i am hurt when i heard those long memories songs, and when i read others love stories, and when i watched their kind of cute love story's drama, and when....

and when i think i am trying to get in close to man, to trust and be trusted, to fall in love again...

i cant stop myself to built a shield which i dont know i have, since i know i do have this kind of i want to be near him feeling, but i cant reach him...

i cant show him i like him, i want him to make a first move, but still i dont know if i can trust him if he do that..

and luckily he seems dont have any kind of feeling, to make the first move! but i. i dont know...

i want to , at least i want him to like me, i think. but every time i see him, since i first time saw him, i can see the hope to me, to maybe at least admire someone, or like him...

since he is the first man who have my full attention on where was him at every time we have any activities together!

but still...

i did believe no woman can make their first move, always. and i did hope for man to make the first move in relationship.

but since he already made the first move, and when he so sure i'd became too attached, not so soon to loved but enough to break my trust, he made the first move to leave me, too!

so, right now, i still cant make the first move, but i cant trust somebody who make their first move towards me, too! i cant trust their true intention!

please, Ya ALLAH, i already forgave him, can ALLAH help ensure my heart to trust somebody...?

sNoW n U~ ^ ^

snowed heavily today, and we had our sobet for graduate wannabe seniors.. i dont know if its correct or not. hu3

everything moved smoothly and happily with those laughters and tears, remembering those days with our photos shown, with them, soon will leave to reach their next step in life. i'll keep remembering you guys...

soon we'll be apart, but hope still there's you in my memories and me in theirs...
  1. adeb
  2. kak ain
  3. kak yat
  4. zambri
  5. kak has
  6. amir
  7. syamim
  8. hilmi
  9. nazir
  10. drogba
  11. along
till then.....

Monday 7 February 2011

^ - ^

i had my organic chem paper today, so i blacked out yesterday without write anything here, sorry..
i do really hope it goes well since it can effect my holiday, but i....

huh, i dont know what happen to me this winter. i cant focus on my study, for the first time i went blank in exam, which hurt my pride the most. since i can assure you i do know the answer....

my sister blamed for my packed winter holiday schedule, but i cant take it as the right reason... going somewhere makes our body need much rest, but since i have my final exam around, you know right what happen next...

tomorrow i have my biology and i hope i can give the best, since i love the subject, and the prof., but not physically ok. he happens to knowledge learning as understand than memorizing, just as what i think about chemistry, and everything overall...

cant wait for this to end....

Saturday 5 February 2011

i am so so sorry...

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

im so, so~ sorry. i did promise dila to write something on this blog every day. but since last winter holiday, i'd busy with all, class, paper and life.

i dont know what happen to me this winter, i just cant study, i cant remember on exam, blank!
i dont know if i can still move on with this final exam.....

so, i am trying now to fulfill my promise...