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i always believe relationship base on trust.thats how you can have forever attachment towards your love one. love without trust will always hunted by simple but threaten argument that may end your love relaltionship..

but, as time past, i came to understand that relation base on trust but not love are equally fool as love which doesn't have trust. maybe more worse...

i came to have this experience about having a relationship based on trust, too ashamed to admit that maybe this relationship's trust only on my side, but on that time, i did wished he might trust me for a second, if its only for a second...

and as i said, relationship based on trust but love are foolish. they go to nothing except a second happines full of lies and long haunted nightmare..

and i still has this haunted nighmare to trust someone else, afraid i may have to endure the same heartbroken as before. makes me realise i may be did not forgive him yet.

i cant think to feel it has one of my beautiful memories or nightmare since i cant forgive him for this hurt. i cant think myself be strong enough to face him, dont dare to ask how relief i was for destiny that never be crossed between us.

i have to forgive to forget. but as everyone know, forgive is one of the hard thing to do in our life...